Fans of Ariana Grande watched the singer break down in tears during the pop star’s tour stop in St. Louis on Saturday. Grande was visibly emotional during her performance of the Sweetener track “R.E.M.,” which she had previously told Jimmy Fallon during an August 2018 Tonight Show appearance was her favourite song from her then-new album, with the stunning ballad weaving a beautiful story of falling in love.
The emotional moment was captured by fans and shared on social media along with messages of positivity for the artist. Holding her head and crying while singing the line “Before you speak, don’t move / Because I don’t want to wake up,” Grande turned the mic towards her adoring fans for a few beats, giving herself a moment to compose herself.
omg i luv her sm i rlly hope she takes this off the setlist if she needs to pic.twitter.com/s5501Aavwd
— blake | alicia stan | saw ffh 🏳️🌈 (@thnkusabrina) July 7, 2019
Following Saturday’s concert, Grande addressed the incident on social media. In a since-deleted Instagram message that was captured by Pop Crave, Grande admits that the past few years in her life have been difficult but that she’s grateful for those around her.
“Tour is wild. Life is wild. I’m grateful for the sea of love I have around me everyday and for the people who come to these shows and give all of us every ounce of energy they’ve got. I’m grateful to work with the best musicians and dancers in the world. I’m grateful for my tour bus driver, Kurt who bought me pickles yesterday because he saw we ran out. I’m grateful for the opportunity to sing to thousands of people every night,” writes Grande.
“It’s a dream come true. No matter how hard it gets or how many feelings come up that are screaming at me to be processed and sorted through one day, I’m grounded by gratitude and promise not to give up on what I’ve started.”
Speaking directly about Saturday’s incident, Grande admits that she is emotional and thanks her fans for allowing her to feel those emotions even when on stage.
“I feel everything very intensely and have committed to doing this tour during a time in my life when I’m still processing my humanness … so sometimes I cry a lot! I thank you for accepting my humanness,” says Grande. “I’m not sure what I did to deserve to meet so many loving souls every night / to feel so much love, but I want you to know that it really does carry me through. I feel it and I appreciate it. And all of you so much.”
Using her platform to inspire her millions of fans, many of whom are tweens and teens, Grande ends the message writing, “I’m sharing this because I’m grateful and because I want you to know that if you too are hurting, you can push through and are not alone. It is hard to balance taking care of the people around you, doing your job, and healing / taking care of yourself at the same time… but I want you to know, you aren’t alone and I think you’re doing great. Love you.”
This isn’t the first time Grande has become vulnerable with fans on social media. In June, the 26-year-old addressed questions about whether she would add more tour dates, revealing that she was putting her health first, writing “I am getting better and feeling grateful. Finding a balance between self-preservation and doing what I love. So, thank you for supporting that.”
the truth is: european leg is going to be a big step. i’m really excited about it and grateful to do it! but since you’re asking, this is simply the best i’m capable of at this time and keeping me closer to home for a majority of the dates is what’s best for my health rn. love u!
— Ariana Grande (@ArianaGrande) June 20, 2019
It’s unclear why Grande decided to delete the positive and powerful post, but regardless she continues to amaze with her resilience and unprecedented success in light of so many challenges. The pop star admitted to suffering from PTSD after a suicide bomber claimed the lives of 22 people at her 2017 concert in Manchester. Then in 2018, Grande lost ex-boyfriend and close friend Mac Miller when he died of a drug overdose. That same year, Grande got engaged to and ended her relationship with SNL cast member Pete Davidson, who posted suicidal messages on Twitter in the months following their split.
So yeah, if Grande wants to cry in concert, on a tour bus, while ordering extra pickles, let the lady cry.