It was the groundbreaking teen drama that ended far before its time. In what would become the series finale, the final episode of the first season of My So-Called Life left viewers with several unanswered questions that have been plaguing fans since the series ended in 1995. Did Angela and Rayanne ever mend their friendship? Did Angela’s father Graham end up having an affair with his business partner? Would we have ever gotten to see Tino? Was the school production of Our Town any good?
Of course, the biggest question stems from the series’ final scene, which included Brian confirming to Angela that he wrote the letter from Jordan, and then Angela getting in Jordan’s car. But what happened after that? Did Angela and Jordan stay together? Did they break up and make up 10 more times until Brian finally wrote their wedding vows to each other? Did Angela get out of the car five minutes later and run after Brian on his bike, finally returning his unrequited love? Or did she say ‘forget it’to both of them and become a CIA Agent? It could happen.
Almost 20 years later, we’re finally getting some answers to our most pressing questions. Show creator Winnie Holzman recently spoke to Elle Magazine for an oral history of My So-Called Life, including what her plans were for the second season that tragically didn’t happen. There were so many more flannel outfits and poetic voice-overs the world never got to experience.
Of course, the biggest cliffhanger was the Angela love triangle, which, in Holzman’s mind, ended with two beautiful words: Jordan Catalano. “I pictured a situation where Angela and Jordan are an item, Delia and Brian are an item, and Angela and Brian are constantly looking to each other for advice and help with their respective dysfunctional relationships,” she said.
Winnie went on to say that Ricky’s living situation with Mr. Katimski would be put into jeopardy when news broke that the teacher was gay. Dividing the school, Sharon’s mother would want him fired and Angela’s mother would fight to keep him employed.
Angela’s home life would also be turned upside down, something the first season hinted at throughout its’ 19 episodes. “Angela’s parents would have split up, and I was going to have her mother go into some kind of depression, and Angela would have to take over running the household,” says Winnie.
When it came to wild child Rayanne, Winnie was still working out her future. “I literally have no idea what I was thinking of for Rayanne, but I think it was getting her in some kind of real trouble,” says Winnie. “And I was going to get Sharon pregnant—that was a thought, anyway. I mean, obviously none of it was carved in stone, but I think I would have jumped off on some of that stuff.”
Thankfully, we do have *some* idea of what it would have looked like if the series went on.